Mamas, I’m going to be totally honest with you here for a minute, I like to be in control. I like to be in control of my day, my projects, and my kid’s schedule. God has his jurisdiction and I have mine. That’s how it’s supposed to work right?
Well that type of thinking worked, until it didn’t.
You see, I went through a very difficult situation with my daughter about five years ago. The details aren’t important, just know that this is one of those times when you drop to your knees like a pile of laundry onto the floor and you stain the denim of your jeans with your tears kind of times.
With all of my intelligence, my creativity, my education, and my experience, I could not fix this. If control of all of life’s situations was a rope, it was slipping through my hands. In desperation, calling out to God, I asked him what I should do. And he gave me the worst answer you can give a control freak…let go.
Trusting God seems like such an obvious thing to do as a believer. I thought I was trusting God, and I was, but not completely. I gave him what was in my left hand, but kept was in the right hand for myself. And for this situation with my child, that was no longer going to work.
I wonder how many of you find yourself in this same predicament. Is there anyone else out there who struggles with control?
My sweet sisters, I want you to know that I came through this situation with my daughter only by giving it to God completely. Although this time was difficult, I am grateful for the tears and the struggle because I have learned to hand out what I was holding on to.
If you, too, struggle with control and trusting God, let me lovingly wrap my arm around you and admonish you to let go. It’s not easy and it can be scary, but it will bring you some much needed spiritual health. You don’t have to go through it alone. Our good, good Father is ready to take it when you are ready to release it.
Blessings as you trust God completely,
Susie and the Help Club for Moms Team
For more information about Susie’s ministry, Between the Gardens, visit her website at susieoneal.org.