Dear Mama, let’s gather around the Passover table for Jesus’ last meal with Peter and the other disciples. Imagine what the air felt like in that room hours before Jesus was betrayed, arrested, and crucified. The disciples had given up their entire lives for Jesus because they believed He was the Savior of the world. As His time on earth was ending, it wasn’t looking like it would be a hero’s ending. This was not what the disciples thought it would be like. Shouldn’t the Savior of the world be riding in on a blazing chariot with a huge army rather than coming in on a donkey and washing dirty feet?

As a mom, I’ve had many “this isn’t what I thought it would be” moments. A few weeks into parenthood, my brand-new baby lost weight and screamed every hour. Breastfeeding wasn’t working, and already, I felt like an incapable mother. That began a long stream of disappointments and disillusionment for me.

At the Passover table, Jesus announces to the disciples that one of them would betray him that night. Shocked and dismayed, Peter and the others each asked, “Is it I, Lord?” Judas, who would betray Jesus, was the only disciple to ask a different question. He asked, “Is it I, teacher?”

Judas wanted to be Lord over his own life. However, he wouldn’t call Jesus “Lord” and instead used the word “teacher.” Shortly after this interaction, Judas ended his own life. On the other hand, Peter still called Jesus “Lord” despite his failings, fear, disappointment, and confusion. Jesus spoke great purpose into Peter’s life, and no perfection was required. We will read more about that in the days ahead.

Mama, in this lifetime, your flesh will fail you. Your feelings will misdirect you. But if you are willing to let Jesus be your Lord in the midst of it all, you will live a life that matters.

Scripture tells us, “If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. (Romans 10:9 NKJV).” Eternal life with Jesus starts the moment that you receive Him as Lord, and it is a life abounding in purpose! With Jesus as your Lord, joy is available to you in every season of life and every stage of parenting!

Let’s pray: Jesus, thank you for meeting your disciples right where they were and for doing the same for me. I know I am imperfect, and I need a Savior. I confess that You, Jesus, are Lord and believe in You. So, when I am tempted to let my feelings be “lord,” help me stand firm and cling to You. Help me to call you Lord in all things and at all times. Amen.

Blessings and Love,

Kacy Ladd & the Help Club for Moms Team

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Kacy Ladd

Hi! I’m Kacy. I am so grateful to have the most unexpected family. I left my job as a marriage and family therapist in Texas for a “6-month mission trip” to South Africa in 2010 and stayed when I met a little boy who needed a mama. That little boy is now a teenager who towers over me, and I still love hearing him call me “Mom”.

Five years into single parenting in the African bush, a Tennessee man also entered the mission field. We met and decided to stay in South Africa and get married.

We are now living in Cape Town, South Africa building up the local church with our teenager and toddler boys.

Help Club for Moms became a lifeline to me when I was lonely on the mission field with a new baby in a foreign country. I am so thankful to write for this community and to document God’s work in my own family at http://www.ladd.family

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